so, I think about the end of the world a lot. not even in a crazy 'omg we're all gonna die!' sort of way. more like a very rational, almost mathematical realization that things can't keep going in the direction they're going without some kind of cataclysm in the next year or two. FEMA has prepared detention centers. Celebrities are buying retreats in remote locations. the US government has contingency plans to literally go underground, and have an intricate network of tunnels under Denver to flee to if necessary. Obviously i'm not the only one who sees the writing on the wall, because all the 'important people' are already prepared.
Thus, my mind wanders to topics like...how prepared am I? In the crap shoot of 'which catastrophe takes us down', how many scenarios am I prepared for? Am I prepared to survive alone? Can I save others? ...what would I do if I could only save a few? Who would I choose? Would they even trust me? Why should I be concerned with the well-being of those who aren't concerned with mine?
Is anyone even paying attention? Is American Idol really the height of intellectual stimulation Americans aspire to these days? Does the fact that I know and care about what's going on in the world make me some kind of unique freak, or have I actually broken out of some kind of mental Matrix ? Maybe it's me that's normal and everyone else that's sedated, being pumped full of 'reality' via MTV or Justin Bieber's hype-filled, fame-and-pleasure pursuing definition of it.
Maybe these are the very circuses with which the masses are concerning themselves while Rome burns, and regarding them as trivial makes me wise and profound, not 'detached and weird'.
Maybe it's everyone else that's weird. Maybe seeing the big picture used to be a common thing that is intentionally being beaten out of the American spirit. Maybe people don't want to know what is going on because they're being trained not to question authority.
Maybe in this New World Order people are only supposed to be sheep, and by maintaining my humanity I am different from most people.
Who is like me? Am I alone? Is there a whole network of millions of normal, everyday Americans who woke up and realized their whole society is built on lies, sponsored by Satanic-cult member elites?
Can anyone read this and say "he's got a point" or will everyone stumbling across this page think "another nut job" and continue on?
Who knows?

who even knows. maybe this is all drivel.