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incidentally, a lot of times i cant say with words what I'm feeling nearly as clearly as I'd like to. that last post is a good example. I dont feel that anyone reading that post would grasp what I meant at all, and the english language is sometimes a mighty poor communication tool.

no matter how many words I use I feel like i'm circling around the heart of the matter, never getting any nearer.

I think that's why we have music, to convey the things we're feeling that we can't say. but unfortunately I don't read, write, or play music so I'm left stumbling around as best I can with words. dangit.