Did I do the right thing, friend? Did I do the right thing, mentor? Did I do the right thing, Dad?

 DID I DO THE RIGHT THING, GOD???

 Why.

 I take the high road. I do the 'decent thing'. I forego the pursuit of what I want. I sacrifice my desires for higher ideals like friendship and brotherhood. I sacrifice my time. I OFFERED MY LIFE, IF THAT'S WHAT YOU WANTED.

 "As ye sow, ye also shall reap."

 I know in my life I have sown plenty of bad. Does it count if I had good intentions? DOES IT EVEN MATTER THAT I TRIED?

 I want, I need some kind of confirmation that at least, in the end, I was right. I did right. I acted rightly. That there is a greater purpose and this is not all for nothing.

 I know that God is God and He owes me nothing. But He owes all of us nothing. Some people get answers. Some people get understanding. Years pass, but sometimes there is that 'aha!' moment where people understand what it all meant.

 I'm not saying I'm owed it, but I am saying I need it. I scarcely know how to go on without it.